just another 365.

its happy birthday to nessa.
and she has a whole list of people to thank.
so here it goes.

GOD.
mummy.
granny.
godma.
godpa.
jessamine.
daddy?
family no matter who you are.
pet.
callisa.
varien.
sheryl.
amanda.
jared.
audrey.
sean.
emmanuel.
anthony.
desmond, my darling manager.
eugene.
shermann.
weewee.
W26R.
W14M.
alvin.
shabin my sweet bestfriend.
my coffeebean people.
charmaine.
lexine.
christie.
claire you bitch.
my toufu.
jasper.
evan my bimbotic lady.
steph.
friends that i forgot to mention.

thank you all for being a part of my life.
no matter how big and small of my life you've been.
thank you for the impact in my life.
no matter how big or small.
i love you all.
no matter how many tries we have to get through.
i love you still.
no matter how many times i've let you down.
i love you.
bottom line.

i fucking love you guys.

for being my strength.
for being my reality check.
for chasing my dreams with me.
pet for dreaming with me.
i'll never forget you baby.
you're still here.

nessa is seventeen.
and it doesn't feel all that different.
maybe later. who knows. haha.

by the way. nessa lieks to be all emo and reflective on her birthday.
so if you see her.
don't bloody hell ask her whats wrong.
cause i swear she will slap you.

nessa likes to be reflective.
cause she likes to reflect on how her past year has been.
and how she is going to be better by 18.

daddy spoiled her first hour of her birthday by spelling my name wrongly when he wished me happy birthday.
nessa cried within the first hour of her birthday cause something just had to hit me in my face.
maybe she expected a little something that never came.
but she never expected you to come kill me from the back.
oh thank you verymuch.

nessa gave herself something really nice.
she took a cake back from coffeebean.
got home.
stick a candle in it.
and sang herself a happy birthday song.

thank you all those who wished me.
the first person to wish me was my darling cousin ALVIN!
who called all the way from camp.
and there was SOMEONE WHO I HAD TO REMIND TO WISH ME.
SHERYL CALLED ME AND SCREAMED INTO MY FREAKING EAR!
but thank you anyway.
i love you too baby darling!
and the first time in so many years you bought me a present.
i swear that i keep it and never let it go.

you sat through nights.
and held me tight.
and made sure i'm okay.
and i thank you for the love you gave to me.